Billions of years ago, Interstellar lightning created the Big Bang Between us It wasn’t that long ago, really… but if I name it in time as we understand it they’ll know it’s you (But They’ll know anyway ) Apparently, the Earth does as it shook below your feet, just as I was writing these words Recall, whichever time after time that was Me getting dressed first Me saying goodbye first Me having to return to someplace where anxiety would drive me me away from you Again That time You said, “thank you,” as I was leaving and I found it so curious Should I carry that home lightly, Eyeroll and the whorish insult or should I let the weight, deep gratitude hanging in your lilt wash over me like a security blanket knowing to this we could always return Except: every time you break me. The delicate balance I carry living in shadows and alleyways Of my former self spins. I’m off kilter, a nauseati...
I have a playlist with your initials Music for a muse It goes from melancholic, to maudlin, to nostalgic to laughable Sometimes in one beat, or less Fast as a hummingbird drinking clear Sugary nectar Wings flutter (Many times, it’s a slow oily candle Burning at more than one end Still somehow frenetic, frantic) Like these words I type That inevitably end in sentences, Engine purring: you Over and over again, a bene-addiction Drawing breath in to savor the savior last syllable, throttle released… When I am on you, drug of choice I feel safe, in each gear No matter the speed. And while I am not a prayerful woman, I know how to knee-down (As you knew) On each speckle freckle in gravel, Stardust maps to villages souls travel Until they get it right.
Prizes, consolatory ones. I can name a few The big ones are treasures beyond riches They are named love, hope, dreams And in their eyes, Our humanity reflects back at us, —the best gift. No matter the mood: They are accessible So You open the chest You expect Pandora, We are trained for the worst, after all: Fight or flight, all a fright But instead, you get —festival of the highest order A loud moonless night engulfed by the Milky Way And Earth’s buzzing darkness At once dangerous with its Silvery lichen, Vulnerable, finally, with its Green, soft night moss Nature’s rave Our Universal dance All that is known, the biggest expanse Laid right there, bare before your feet Begging for your touch But instead of plucking off The smallest piece, One star Or even a twinkle Knowing that’s all you’d get An...
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