Eternal sunshine
Scrubbed clean mind
I’d forgotten
To remember
To forget
you,
human.
I always thought you just
Beyond (or behind) my reach
A path they could never teach
To a case like mine,
Too guarded,
Nope. No time.
Me?
Just one step from good enough
I ran up awkward,
winding staircases
medieval structures
fashioned like torture devices,
where you can easily
miss a step
and scrape your knee.
A tower prison
where the cursed are locked away
With thoughts like these…
What I should’ve said,
When I saw you again,
was please
Let me stay
and I won’t go up those stairs.
The Now I’m living simply isn’t right
Neither is yours.
If I had
Said the words caught in my throat,
…Choking on obligation,
Time would have solidified
Exactly where it should have
In our before times
The spiced chill I crave would have gently
tingled alive, timur on the tongue,
Like sleep waking just before chrysalis
With you,
holding me around the waist
A cocoon.
If only I could stay. There.
But,
I remember
to forget,
turn away.
The memory of my hand
slipping out of yours (again)
A silent echo,
Reverberating forever.
